It totally consumes me and I hate what trying to become pregnant has done to me as a person. I use to be the funny one, I use to love spending time with my girlfriends, going out, being with family & friends, I was the life of the party (well in my head I was). Of course…
Fear blocks flow
So I went to see another psychic. I’ve seen them before, usually for fun but this time it’s game on. I want to know what’s going on and what the hell I have to do. I’m not naive and I don’t listen to the psychic and only hear what I want to hear. I’m hopeful…
A cast of thousands
JANUARY 2011 Okay so this natural conception caper is just bullshit. I’ve pulled out all stops and called upon a cast of thousands to help me get pregnant. Whoever said it takes two to tango didn’t have fertility issues. In my case, I have so far enlisted the help of – husband (obviously most important…
Nappies & Tampons
NOVEMBER 2010. Have decided to start writing my journal (which will eventually become a blog when I become tech savvy enough to sort that out) because if I don’t have some kind of outlet it’s possible I’ll stab someone. Day one of a cycle that I never thought I’d see. I did EVERYTHING right…
Dear God,
Where the f&^% are you? My day so far – 1. dismiss one employee 2. take 2 phone calls from people who tell me they are pregnant and 3. have a conversation with another employee who excitedly tells me she and her partner plan on getting pregnant next year. Go home and skip the chinese herbs…
Crazy lady and the man with the newspaper
I know all the horror stories about the IVF drugs and what they can do to a gal. I’ve got friends who have been there, done that and there’s no holding back when fellow IVF’ers swap stories. They say women lose all dignity during childbirth but I’m pretty sure I gave away my dignity when…