There’s this scene in the first Sex in the City movie when Carrie and the girls are holidaying in Mexico. They are actually on Carrie and Big’s honeymoon minus Big of course. Charlotte is feeling a sense of guilt for being happy. The conversation goes like this: Charlotte: Nobody gets everything they want! Look at…
Infertility
I have one child not an only child
When Charlie was about a year old I was asked by someone when baby number 2 was coming along. I wasn’t at all offended by this question and I didn’t know this person especially well so my response was fairly neutral, I didn’t go into any details but simply explained that we wouldn’t be having…
Bloody hell
I wish I could say that the next 6 months of pregnancy went without a hitch and that the following months were of zen like pregnancy yoga and glowy skin and hair but that then would be poppycock. Of course after everything, I loved that I was pregnant and not a day went by when I didn’t feel…
The story of the golden egg
November 2012 If you have read all of my past posts you would first know that there is a gap of about 12 months where this post under “hopes in a petri dish” take off. Looking back, I can’t really explain the writing sabbatical. In part I felt like the whole thing was a bit…
Don’t bake and inject
Last weekend I kept thinking ‘Ooh, next weekend I might be pregnant” and so when this weekend finally arrived and I was very not pregnant my emotions were surprisingly ok. We were quite busy and there wasn’t a lot of time to dwell and I knew I had Dr M’s appointment coming up so I…
Never rely on a dragonfly
Okay, this is not going to be pretty so brace yourself. Last Saturday night (less than one week to go before finding out if this last cycle would be the one) I dreamt about a dragonfly. I don’t remember the specifics of the dream but I remember the absolute exact image of the dragonfly. I…