It was Charlie’s birthday party, there were 20 something mini Ninjas in our backyard. Loud and free they are screaming, jumping and laughing. So much wild laughter and the sound is like balm to the soul. Children’s laughter is pure joy and comes as a gentle reminder that innocence is not always lost.
There were tears of course. The untimely, unfortunate demise of a balloon animal made by the ninja party entertainer who we hired because, like I said, there were 20 of them and we knew we would need reinforcements.
Nearing the end, we’d just sung Happy Birthday and I was pre-occupied by how I was going to cut up the ninja cake whilst 15 of the 20 kids were shrieking orders at me, the bossy little things can barely use their own cutlery but here they were shouting advice at me on how I was to cut the cake. Sheesh.
In the background I could hear the coaxing and coercing of boys telling Charlie to kiss the little girl beside him. You know the tradition, if you touch the bottom of the cake with your knife you must kiss the nearest person. My generation spent our childhood growing up, singing to songs about kissing in trees so my initial thought being it was funny. Cute. But Charlie was standing right beside me, my child, whose body nestles right into the curve of my own and because he is me, my bat signal went off and I sensed he felt uncomfortable. I didn’t want to have a disproportionate reaction to a nothing situation but in that tiny pocket of time the thought crossed my mind that this was a moment I was probably required to parent my way through. I turned to Charlie on my right and whispered to him he didn’t have to do anything and I turned to the match makers on my left and handed them both a giant piece of ninja cake and told them whoever ate the fastest could have a second piece.
My little boy is only 6 and suddenly I’m dealing with beginnings of consent and I do not know how this bit of parenting is meant to go.
Party over, the thought lingered on, but I didn’t give it too much energy, I put my head back in the sandpit, he’s six, not sixteen after all.
That is, until a week later, The Hunting on SBS aired the first of a 4 part series. If you haven’t already watched it then never mind the brilliant content, it has Richard Roxburgh and Asher Keddie in it so there’s a clue right there.
It was compelling to watch. As a parent to a small person who knows nothing of social media it would be easy to pretend it’s not something I have to worry about it. It’s not our current reality but the unrelenting evolution of technology means it will most definitely be our future one. That’s a terrifying thought.
My experience of parenting so far has been many things. Tiring, messy, humbling, terrifying, frustrating, chaotic and buckets of fun. But it has recently dawned on me that it hasn’t yet really been complex and complicated. The consequences of a poor parenting decisions (and there have been many) haven’t really surfaced and nothing dire has happened.
At least not yet.
Reflecting on Charlie’s party and watching The Hunting, I realised I had so much more to learn, to figure out and to navigate though. How then can we be certain that we are doing the right thing, do the “experts” even agree on what this is, and should I be studying child psychology because what if my mothering instincts aren’t enough? Even if we do our best, it might not ever be enough. What then?
This is the kind of stuff that keeps me awake at night.
The Hunting really explores the subtle and not so subtle pressures that young people face at school and online but what is even more troubling to watch was the parents, the behaviour they modelled and the influence it had on their children. It’s a cautionary tale, a confronting truth and worth pointing out that this series was based on true events.
It’s a privilege to be a parent and to raise a good human is important and meaningful work but it is also hard, and it feels like this infinite task where the goal posts change, and the stakes are high. I’ve previously written my thoughts on raising a son when I wrote Raising a feminist son when the t shirt says “The Future is Female” and Don’t tell me boys will be boys. It is all we can do other than teach our children about kindness and respect and know that this is the one bit of parenting we have to get right.
There’s no bloody chapter on any of this in “What to expect when you are expecting.”
Every minute of The Hunting was superb to watch but in the final 10 minutes there is a classroom scene that is powerful and it flawlessly summarises the disconnect between the genders and the issues surrounding sexual violence. The boys are asked what they do to avoid sexual violence and judging by their reactions it was a question they had never considered; they were genuinely perplexed. When the girls were asked the same question, their reaction was in direct contrast. The responses (carry our keys in our hand, don’t go out alone, don’t wear certain types of clothes) came effortlessly and steadily because it is a lived experience.
I know it’s a big leap to bridge the gap between 6 year old’s kissing at a birthday party to worrying about consent. But from the time Charlie was born to where we are now, it’s been but a blink of the eye so when I blink again, he’ll be 12, then 16. Today he is a little boy who sleeps with a rabbit called Pink Cherry, so it is difficult to imagine having a conversation with him about online sexual violence and consent. The obligatory “birds and bees” lesson will extend into much darker terrain it seems. It makes me feel a combination of sadness and of fear. It makes me want to press pause and it reminds me that I only have a limited time before things get real.
When I woke up the morning of Charlie’s birthday party, I knew it would be a day of happiness and delight, what I didn’t expect was that a bunch ninjas would offer up a lesson and give me pause.
I read another blog last year and it urged us not to tickle children without their consent.
It gave good reasons why this instills beliefs in children that their bodies are not their own.
Boys (and girls) thus grow up with the body instinct that size and strength (and alas even gender) are wrongly also power.
This cause sexual and physical violence in women and men.
We must not treat children the ways we may have been wrongly treated.
Thank you for thinking about this.
I’ve read a few articles along the similar theme. It sometimes feels the world has gone mad but at the same time, if we are tickling our son and he tells us to “stop” then we do so because it’s about educating the concept of “stop means stop, no means no…”